"who cares dude"
Feb. 24th, 2024 08:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dicknail I hate feeling ugly. My parents think I'm ugly, even my sister thinks I'm ugly. These are the people that undeniably love me the most, these people don't think I'm beautiful- so how could anyone else? I feel so hideous. I don't want to leave the house.
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Recently I've noticed that every time I eat anything with carbs I get a bunch of massive pimples, whiteheads and all, on my face, within fifteen minutes. I genuinely cannot eat carbs anymore and now there's a visual reminder of whenever I cheat on my diet. It's embarrassing. Dad also won't buy good foods, so I have nothing in the house I can eat besides the small amount of vegetables we have. It is all so frustrating.
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I can never try my hand at men either. I'm just not attractive to them. Every man that I've tried to get with always goes for another girl. A girl they know nothing about and have barely talked to- but she's pretty, so that's more than enough for them. You could say I'm just going after the wrong men if all they value are looks, but the guys I've tried to get with were all so different from each other- what were the chances they'd all value appearances. I was friends with all of these men, for years, I knew them and they knew me, but I'm never enough.
Men never look at me, so sometimes I try to compensate by having my chest out, which both doesn't work and only attracts pedophiles.
Pedophiles don't count as men to me. They'll fuck anything under eighteen, so their attention never makes me feel attractive.
Nobody has ever directly called me ugly, but they don't have to, because I already know. I know so well.
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Recently I've noticed that every time I eat anything with carbs I get a bunch of massive pimples, whiteheads and all, on my face, within fifteen minutes. I genuinely cannot eat carbs anymore and now there's a visual reminder of whenever I cheat on my diet. It's embarrassing. Dad also won't buy good foods, so I have nothing in the house I can eat besides the small amount of vegetables we have. It is all so frustrating.
--
I can never try my hand at men either. I'm just not attractive to them. Every man that I've tried to get with always goes for another girl. A girl they know nothing about and have barely talked to- but she's pretty, so that's more than enough for them. You could say I'm just going after the wrong men if all they value are looks, but the guys I've tried to get with were all so different from each other- what were the chances they'd all value appearances. I was friends with all of these men, for years, I knew them and they knew me, but I'm never enough.
Men never look at me, so sometimes I try to compensate by having my chest out, which both doesn't work and only attracts pedophiles.
Pedophiles don't count as men to me. They'll fuck anything under eighteen, so their attention never makes me feel attractive.
Nobody has ever directly called me ugly, but they don't have to, because I already know. I know so well.
